Quarter Life Crisis

I'm too young to experience a breakdown and yet I'm having one.

25 is turning out to be quite a fun year, replete with feelings of inadequacy, failure, poverty, and a general sense of loss.

Someone please tell me it gets better.

Lift Your Head Child

So I've been feeling better lately about the direction my life is going even though I feel as if I'm standing where I've been standing for quite a while. I don't know, there's this sense of security that's settled over me, as if someone has whispered in my ear that everything is going to be okay even though sometimes it doesn't feel that way.

I've rededicated myself to my writing...again. I think it's just the fact that I'm turning 25 next week and I feel as if I haven't done much of anything at all or anything of significance in all of the years that I've walked this earth. It's going to take me a while to get my writing career started, maybe, and I don't want to waste any more time than I have to working dead end jobs where I constantly find my worth being undervalued either by myself or my employer. I know what I'm good at and what I'm not good at, to a certain degree, and I really don't want to keep wasting my time.

Still looking for a second job. I think I'll work two jobs for a while to see how things work out and possibly quit one in the future. Who knows.

I just hope that this feeling doesn't end, or if it does I just hope I remember what it feels like. And I think that I will.

Take care, gentle readers.

PUBLICATION!

I've finally been published! Well, this makes twice if you count the two poems I had in my university's literary magazine. Hopefully this will be the first in a long line of publications.

Check out "SanGuine" on Chaos Theory: Tales Askew e-zine.

http://www.genspace.com/ctta/issue-13/tocframe.htm