I've finally found a second job working at Mad Greens. I feel like the oldest person there, one of them at least. But I'm going to suck it up, work, and make money. After all, that's what my original intention was. The days have been flying by as of late working two jobs. Thankfully I'm still working on the second novel and it's coming along rather well.
So I've finally rustled up the courage to find an agent. It's something that I've been nervous about for quite some time. My novel has been finished for about 6 months now and there's no need for it to collect dust. I really do think it has an excellent chance of being published if someone is brave enough to take a chance on me. At this point it's fear that become my biggest obstacle.
It's become nearly painfully apparent that I'm simply not cut out for working a normal 9-5 job. I'm too much of a daydreamer, often find myself wondering what the hell I'm doing doing menial tasks (not that I'm too good to do them, just that I know I'm meant for more), that and I always feel like someone's bitch. I'm ready to have lunch with my agent, attend writer's meetings, have talks with studios about turning my work into a movie or TV show, and attending book signings.
I think I'm slowly but surely starting to feel like the 25-year-old that I am. I'm ready to live the life that I want to live rather than the one I have to live. Thinking about this gives me a certain feeling of assurance, so maybe this is what is meant to be.
I pray that it is.